Recklessly Thirty

A Saturday afternoon just laying quietly by the pool at my apartment complex. Just me, my headphones, the lone woman across the pool from me, and go figure, these damn thoughts. The song is a Sara Bareilles song and it's making me feel reminiscent of the time I'm about to be leaving behind... My twenties! Letting go... People tell us to do it along the way. To leave behind all the bad, negative, unhappy moments, people, and things. I didn't learn until my late 20's, how to really do this. Even still, just a week or so away from turning 30, I'm  telling myself to let go of stuff.  Let go of the early 20's, Jill. Let go of your mid 20's and the last few years too!  Let go of the heartbreaks you had. The first real heartbreak that led you to push yourself harder for everything you wanted. And look at what you had achieved because of it. Let go of the heartbreak that you thought would never heal because it did, and thank God you didn't en

It is more annoying than anything else to even deal with the dating world today. I realize that women are not innocent in their doings, but I must have a damn neon sign flashing above me that says "fool"! I'm beyond sick of trying to please anyone else and being nice by trying to reach out. It's not just me I see going through this unbelievable struggle. I have a handful of girlfriends who have to face these little boys too. There have been a dozen reasons that I have become just fed up with this bullshit! Therefore, I've written y'all a little something. Part of me hopes some certain people read this to finally understand where some of us girls are coming from. Another part of me will honestly feel bad because it's calling them out (sort of) and I hate being mean.  Oh well...Here it is! First off guys, imagine you have a daughter. Imagine she ends up dating a man like you. Would you be happy with how your little girl (grown up or not) was ju

I may not have been able to cross off everything on my 30 before 30 list, but I did a lot more than I thought I would and this has only motivated me to do a 40 before 40 list! I may carry things over from this list, who knows. The list is in the making for now and you know I will share it with you as soon as I finish it!  Allow me to explain how in 2 years I worked on 30 things to do before I turned 30!... 1) Read one book every month for a year  (10/12) The Crossfire Series (5 books), Grey, To All The Boys I Loved Before, P.S I Still Love you, Sara Bareilles-Sounds Like Me, Dirty Rush I hate reading, but in the last year I have truly enjoyed meeting all of these characters and falling into their world to escape my own. I will continue to push myself to read books that interest me. In fact I have about 5 or 6 that I purchased recently just waiting to be read! 2)  Payoff Chase credit card I am fortunate enough to say that I did this before 30. 3) Take a kickboxing